"Bumped"

I am totally bummed. I should be at the hospital right now in an immense amount of pain pushing out my new baby, but instead I am bumped. My doctor's office called me last night to inform me that the hospital needed to bump me to make room for a medical emergency. I am trying to think of anything that might qualify me as an emergency right now...emotional instability. That might work. Not only am I bumped but I have to wait four more days for the next available spot at the hospital. So, unless Jude comes on his own (which has its own set of worries for me), it looks like I could be spending Christmas morning at the hospital instead of with Annabel. This upsets me the most because she is SO excited about Christmas and I was so excited that this would be our first Christmas where she understood everything.

Pregnancy and childbirth are one of those times in life where you have no control. I have tried my hardest to have some kind of control over these last few months and now I feel totally helpless. There is nothing David or I can do right now to make this happen (short of breaking my own water, and I can't find any tutorials on how to do that...haha, that was a joke I swear). Not even my doctors (of which I have four) can get this baby out right now. I know God is in control and in the great scheme of things this is not big deal, but I am having a hard time seeing past my huge belly to see the good in this situation. It is moments like these you realize how spoiled you are. Even though I know I should be ashamed I can't help but feel totally bummed!

So.....no pictures today, but keep updated for Part II, "The Saga of the Never Ending Pregnancy"